Don't Give Up! 253.5 pounds. + 2.9 pounds today, - 0.5 pounds this week, - 5.9 pounds this month, - 26.5 pounds since May 1, - 79.5 pounds from my all-time high of 333 pounds.

Yesterday was a tough day and the results make me want to give up, but I can't. I've come to far, and I have farther to go and I need to get to my destination.

I've gained over 5 pounds in the past 2 days and I can't claim to be surprised. Yesterday I took my daughter to D.J.'s Crab Shack in Stillwater. It was fantastic. We came home and my body treated the meal like I had just eaten an appetizer, because I was hungrier than when we left the house. Last night my wife made a delicious chicken dinner and I had 2 helpings of it. My oldest daughter made cookies that were delicious and I had a few of those. How could I not gain a lot of weight?

I fooled myself Into my old way of thinking that somehow, by magic, I could eat whatever I wanted and the food would just slide through my body and not stick. I don't know where this magical thinking came from, but I've had it most of my life. I've learned that just because I have the thought doesn't make it reality. So now I have a choice, do I keep operating by this false belief or do I operate in reality?

Today is going to be another difficult day since it is the weekend and I'm lacking structure. We are taking a scenic train ride today to see the changing leaf colors. It should be a fantastic time together as a family. The only drawback to all of this is the issue of food. My wife has already made her famous scones for breakfast. If I have one I'll have a bunch. Lunch will be another wonderful meal, as will dinner. With these great meals I struggle with portion control. This is set up to be a tough day, but I'm going to try to limit my food intake, starting with skipping the scones. We'll see how I do today and we'll see what the scale says tomorrow morning!